19th May 2004


the burdens of the pain that continues to burn within my soul
yearns for the time of healing,
new age of self discovery
misguided routines and leftover disagreements-
salty tears, and unwanted fears- uncharted wave of emotions lost without a life guard.

Life is hard with the decisions that have to be made, I never thought this could happen
Once happy and involved now sad and alone.
I’m sorry that it has to be this way but the world is spinning so fast-
All the arrows are pointing in this direction

Go stop, leave, don’t leave, I finally understood what I needed to do.
Letting go of me, learning that a new life is out there-
22 and still lost within myself
still broken hearted
still just still….nothingness, numbness- coldness