Flipper

I'm tired with the daily rituals of life-
here we go again, the traffic in my eyes view-
the smog like atmosphere--breath it in and out
the alarm clock of my life rings with curiosity-
tick, tick, tock tock- RING---get up and GO!!

Spinning like a vintage top- colors of yellow and blue-
twirling together creating a vivid new green-
I've been witnessing new feelings right in front of me-
they bounce, and giggle, twirl and fling
I find myself asking the question
is this really happening?

In the midst of the weeks mundane details-
I carry my duties lighter than before-
my stressed out muscles are falling into a new form of
TRANQUILITY
My eyes now close at the right times and my slumber like motions
carry throughout the night-

I was hanging by a tethered rope-
strangled in every possible way-
torn, lied to, hated, mis-treated like a starving bum-
now cut by the hands of time
I've been released into the water like an orphaned dolphin
this water tastes so good-
salty and clouded with kelp-
I'll float here for a while and enjoy the ride

Cast off into the sunset and have my silhouette painted
across a sand dollar and sold in a store
spread the joy found within a swim-
the splashing and refreshed feelings of a new beginning.

mommy dearest

deep inside the walls of my heart
I've been burning inside with anger and resentment
unable to replace my evil temperament-
the thoughts of my past intercept my willingness to move on-
I've tried so hard to make things right, for some reason it just is not working out.

Bye I'll see you later- I'm going to dinner
5 hours later the house is empty the mouths of the walls scream
tick tick - time is passing on
being alone and only fourteen- i make my own dinner
i hate you

I was young and naive- i didn't care then
now i see how much pain you've actually done to me,
the littlest things, not being home, not knowing what's going on in my life-
just being a little reckless by wearing my heart on my sleeve-

bye I'll see you later- go to school- i won't be home-
go to your dads, i hate your dad,
I'm with him, you can't go- you are mine
I hate you

doors that have been closed off and locked for all these years,
it's been shut down and blocked with barriers-
I'd rather be locked inside and safe from being hurt-
you never realize how something will affect you

spellbound at midnight

Hypnotize me with your vocalists lyrics
possess me with your thoughts and ideas
shape my misshaped body
into what you desire
my cationic membranes that lack a heart beat
the zombie like limbs that the graves sent into exile
infuse my brain with the knowledge you choose-
I'm breathing for you now
What is my life to YOU?
the hands of time are shifting forward
teaching me what new values and roles should be displayed
lesson by lesson- pass or fail
attempting to rise against the holy rail
as a good girl I'll wag my tail
as I close my eyes, there will be no avail.

Alive with anxiety

The walls of the intellectual tissue pulsate
--even still at two am---
the only lullaby it has is a windy road with flashing lights
blinking and flirting with the sound playing its heart out INSIDE---
as the tail lights wave back at my eyelashes winking smile
why is everything so vivid
the world is at its slumber
and my mind it still ticking with wonder
the images projected are clear
insomnia is what I'll always fear
restless and unintentional it seems it always happens---
this girl's mind can never sit still
I'm lost in the dark
I'm at the end of my rope
in a world filled with chaos how will I ever cope?

Curfew! Times up-
and with every stroke of luck
we are short to realize what life holds as
the ULTIMATE prize.
either of LOVE or HATE
we have to learn how to separate
what is important to US
happiness today or happiness tomorrow?
or an empty life of pain and SORROW?

Cynical Cinderella

Theatrical romances, happily ever afters
are false ideas that impregnate sappy minds
Rescue me oh prince charming-
so swift and daring
how handsome and caring
my innocence is shrinking
as my wings of lust are quickly blooming
floating away on cloud nine
oh prince charming will you be mine?

So sad are we
that we somehow fail to see
the truth the reality
life itself- the gravity we really do need.

Fiji

you're the apple of my eye
delicious and ripe with color
i see you in a shiny new light
one i thought i'd never discover
it glistens like sand passing through my hand
like soapy water in a cup
pinging and singing a sweet new song
with each ripple against the rim
hold your breath and dive in

pressed together hands
slicing through the water
the humming of your voice
dances in my ear
open your eyes
and come up for air

star gazer

the white lines of the road seemed clearer than ever-
the realization that everything is okay makes me smile.
I was just walking one day and bumped into you- it looks like fate wanted me to meet you.
convincing a pessimist is hard to do-
although I'm starting to believe that it is really true.

the moon was so bright the other night that it made my eyes blurry.
the small insignificant rings that surrounded it waved at me.
I didn't wave back, I Just looked at it and sighed.
the cold crisp night air filled my lungs, and I wished upon a shooting star.

Star light star bright-
last star I watched tonight-
You brought me luck you brought me faith-
thank you for this beautiful place

the warmth of your hands, the kiss of your lips-
blinded by the solar eclipse-
so strong of a force so natural of light-
I always knew this felt right.