Moon beams-and lucky charms

Reel me in hook line and sinker
Like an electric worm on a baited hook
Reborn late into the early night
transformed from golden shy rays of soft cascading light
into a free form of resonance
white, whole, whimsical and picturesque like
transitioned somewhere between heaven and earth
there is a place I finally feel at home-
although the walls are invisible and the roof is a thick blanket of stars
safety is dwelling amongst the hidden clouds
follow me, let me guide you-watch for the signs
Red-bright, shimmering STOP
Green-still stand still WAIT
I will whisper to you when the time is right, listen with your eyes
feel with your lips, taste life with your soul
Wake up and feel the cold water splash through your eyelashes
the world will cater to you if you let it
slowly as the clouds disperse becoming thin
translucent through the knife of lunatic melodies the moon sings
lullaby you to sleep, sends a message of peacefulness
not found in regular surroundings
this time it's not the crickets or the clocks rhythmic ticking that dances with the beating of my heart, but the very distant over sized night light
that has hugged me to my slumber-
the safety of mother nature kisses my forehead as father time closes my eyes

How do you tell yourself not to think
to stop pondering the question
the answer will find itself
everyday I lie awake thinking of you
the moon, the air I'm breathing
Restless and in need of sleep
I still lie awake
hoping you're thinking of me too
or if not that you're okay
that all is well
My feet are warm, the fan is spinning-
not as fast as the world but it's there
in a continuous motion
the only thing that is consistent in my life right now
that familiar humming of the blades as they cut through the still night air
the cords are hypnotizing- a sweet melody
still here awake daydreaming of sleeping
time still passing in the same way my heart is still beating
the way my mind is bleeding
wanting a break, a rest
time to relax and become one with the cotton stuffed my pillow
a new sanctuary for my insanity
close my eyes tight, become one with the springy foundation
that will cradle you to R.E.M.

vampiress feelings of the night

my coffin is lined with black licorice and formaldehyde
the shovels are digging deeper
i have to fill these cracks in the walls
splitting and breaking
white plaster chips sinking into the plush blanket of carpeted earth
i am wide awake with pain and betrayal
lies and deception
hate and revengeful thoughts
i cannot let the shackles of blame go unlocked
turning the keys in silence...

through the open night air and the white clouded sky line-
a drink in one hand and my heart exposed like an open wound.
It feels like fire, a cosmic fire that was sparked by you-
watching and smiling, the touch of your hand the kiss of your lips-

a look in your eyes can make me feel better than any gin and tonic-
I love you, i love moving with you, and singing with you-
driving with you, and just being with you-
it's a new hobby that I think I'm good at

De-oxygen-ized

Open that window and let the fresh air in-
I cannot take this smothered air-
hot, sticky and even THICK
It's to the point where a rock will need to shatter the glass-
the glass that is barricading me in-SIDE
I'll use my fist if I have to, whatever I need to do to get OUT!

I'm trapped though...yes I said trapped
easily defined-where's the key because the door is locked.
the window is sealed, go ahead bury me
ALIVE-

I have listened and watched
sat and even taken notes
noticed the small facial expressions that pass by each day
the frazzled faces that stress and cannot cope
even tried to deny the truth that I am one of them

My own worries are not as significant as those
those who are mothers, those who are fathers, their worries seem relevant
where as I am just a girl-
overacting, overstating, under minded, and unappreciated

Let me open that window-
let me fly away-
I'll kick it open if I have to
Let the shards of glass slice through the thin membrane of my skin
bleeding for air, for love, for acceptance, for HELP.

chips and salsa

Twirl me in a circle of simplicity, let me go with the twist of your wrist.
This life was made to dance in, to laugh and be free in-
leave me be I'll watch the sunset....the wars in my head will not be missed
as the bombs settle within the ground, my social liberties will begin.

Ringing of the phone- no it's destiny calling instead,
talking to the voices in my head
with thoughts of the color red-
bursting with feelings left unsaid-
unstated and far from dead.

Ticking of the clock- no it's the beating of my heart
rhythmic motion taking a slow start-
pulsating and pushing blood through my veins-
love is something you shouldn't try to explain

So small steps side by side my feet will move
Laughing at my past life, I've got nothing to loose-
just that I am happier now, it's easy to prove
Now that it's me and you....

a new diamond

I joined this team to extend my arms -
to perfect my game- the distance within.
I no longer work alone but amongst my friends.
I don't know that guy, but he looks familiar.
No he reminds me of that one guy I used to know.

Dirty and dusty slide home!
Up! Foul ball...no he was safe!- NO!
HE WAS OUT!

I know what I saw, I know I was right.
Blu called him out, so I guess I was wrong.
My team still won, it was just a game of fun.
I get to unwind, loose sight of reality and just PLAY.

Good game, see you later
we could always use another player..
give me a call-

We'll just play ball.....