hopeless faith

what is hope but a four lettered word that is filled with disappointment?
one can hope that things will work out the way they need them to,
that a person will be what you want them to be, but yet until the real results are found
one continues to have hope.

true optimistic cheerful hope.

how does hope differ from faith? hope is like holding your breath waiting for hiccups to pass, or crossing your fingers until they go numb. Whereas, faith is something that is yearned for and seems more substantial. faith is real, it makes one believe in the unseen...the power of faith can be applied to almost anything. faith is definite....either you have it or you don't. Hope on the other hand tends to be shaky at times. hope is unsettling, unpredictable, and can always falter.

so which would you rather have....unwaivering faith in someone or unstable hope....

free bird

there was once a key that opened this locket
the gold became dull and looks more like brass...
dirty and antiquated
it fails to represent what i once felt for you
as the minutes disappear, slowly, constantly
the love i thought i needed fades
into a distant clouded memory

clasped tight is this chain,
dangling, resting against my beating chest
it vibrates close to my skin
cold metal warms
and my real heart continues to sing

drum like, fast and vibrant
i'm full of life, happy and free
uncaged i turn the key
to my own happiness...

love spell

this pink bottle filled with love
handle it with care
it is luminous and glitters
as you hold it in your hands

finger and thumb meet the jewel top
opened the soft vanilla scent escapes
and the sweet vapor disappears

inhale the sensual goodness and
become instantly delirious
exhale and nearly faint

captivated by your smile
drunken by your laugh
this spell is magical
and so is the twinkle in your eyes

the sun set earlier tonight and there is an unsettling chill in the air
hauntingly delicious, the trees are covered with colors of candied corn
a full moon hangs above a quiet city where most are asleep safe in their beds
while one sits and stares at a cold blank wall
their mind is flooded with a sadness that is unforgettable
their worrisome brow furrows within the night
and the deep exhalation of their sigh is the only audible sound
it echoes through the night like an eerie gust of wind

red flag

there's a fire burning my heart
like lightening that flashes across the sky
a quick burst of light and it fades to black
inside nothing is left but false hope and bitter confusion

taking off the rose colored glasses
the smoke and mirrors are discovered
the Houdini you are, i was led blindly
easily, and now the spell is BROKEN

as the wall is built again
the red flag is raised
blowing freely in the wind
hoist the colors of love, blood and rage.

lucid love

over it and over you
the feelings left are less than few
they fade fast as the day becomes night
i don't question anymore what it right

the pedal stool that you once sat upon is now a broken chair
the image of you has shattered and i don't even care
i realize now that you are indeed flawed-never meant to be
at least not forever, and that is something i truly now see.

its funny how in love i thought i was-

confused by emotion driven by lust

it's toxic and beautifully addicting

a true drug dream...

pain factory

why is pain manufactured by the ones you love the most?
they have the ability to alter your future with minimal words.
what is left is the distorted truth- and you seem to be blinded with denial,
bounded at the hands with unfulfilled promises and hearts bruised with lies.

each twist of fate leaves you questioning what is right
second guessing everything and blaming yourself for mistakes
these small cold fragments of reality slice you open like
jagged glass, only to leave you bleeding, tears falling and too ashamed
to ask for help

earthquake

my life is on hold still standing and solid
frozen in the present and all i want to do
is move forward
reaching into the future for the new life that i crave
as soon as i feel grounded the floor begins to shift
everything around me crumbles, dissipates and i lose focus
once again.
with a blurry vision ahead hope is lost and hard to find

broken reflection

every time my phone chimes i secretly wish it is you
i lie awake at night wishing your arms were around me too
why can't i just walk away?
why won't these feelings fade?
hearing your voice brought me to tears again
i still am in denial of us coming to an end
lying to myself i pretend that we can be friends
why wasn't my love enough for you?
why is my heart so confused?
no one understands the pull you have on me
it's like a magnet that no one can see
you sucked me in with all your finesse
and then left me in a broken hearted mess
when will i learn that you won't ever be mine...
when the time has passed and my heart isn't blind?

camouflaged

trust is embedded in broken promises, deceit, lies and false alibis

mistrust is clouded with love, lust and happy endings

everything is a twisted paradox that is never what it seems

black and white is always a shaded gray and just when you've got it figured out
things begin to change

open house

you hold the key to this safe house of mine
one that is decorated to a hearts content
warm, red, slightly acidic like wine
unlock the mystery that lies within

inside the room my walls remain quiet
the dust softly settles, it's been a while
it took you forever to come and find it
the story of us and how it unravels...

sea shells spill over the counter
as sand sediment fills between your toes
and memories begin to make you wonder
when did you first begin to fall?

fast into a splendid spiral
farther down into a happy oblivion
delighted with a sappy smile
this is somewhere you always want to be

mr. alright?

sitting alone in the quiet dark
i dream about a destined romantic spark

will i ever meet my one true love?
does he even exist?

so many close calls but never one that sticks
something is wrong with the loves that i pick!

flat line

delicate and barely beating resuscitate this heart of mine
rephrase the concept of cheating and i've begone to flat line

with closed eyes the darkness starts to invade
with one last breath i sigh and my pulse slowly fades

the quickness of death begins to set in
this fractured heart is lifeless once again

forever at a stand still, it would only beat for you
cold to the touch my lips turn blue

bury the memories that paralyze me with pain
remember what we had and how it will never be the same

one tearful goodbye...ashes to ashes dust to dust
i'm still wondering if love was blinded by lust?